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One Eyed Monster

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Don't want me to leave

But not fighting hard enough

For me to stay

While falling prey on vicious rumors

I've strayed back to the past

Thought you were smarter than that

Yet a poignant reminder

Of how tenuous love can be

One eyed monster

Lives and reigns

With a chokehold on intimacy.



Was it sympathy

That drew you to me?

Was it all for show

Knowing full well

That you had already

Built a defense

To prevent a spell

From being cast?



I never wanted your pity

Yet reminded you

Of the sorrow perpetrated

From a mind desiring

To be sedated by you.



Does it hit too close to home

When I say you're a drug

That keeps me hooked?

It took everything under the sun

Within his grace

Not to do anything

I'd be regretting in the last days.



To death do I part

So dramatic without apology

And while I'm keeping

Psychology students bemused

There's no amusement

When it comes to my predilection

For misdirected affection

While I vote in abstention

For the saving of my soul.



I don't need to say

Or spell out your name

To remember those intoxicatingly crazy days

When my mind was torn apart

By an idealization of you

Did you even have a clue

As to my self-destruction?



Whether we meet again

Or you remain a fixture

For future broadcast

Remains to be seen

But the present unsettled

With words forbidden

And thoughts unauthorized

Nothing left but to shut these eyes

And try to avoid envisioning you.



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